Hi, my name is Jessica and I do not suffer from depression.
Sure, it runs in my family and my mother has suffered greatly from mental illness, but that’s precisely why I’ve made a point to never claim that splot on my soul. After all, I don’t want to affect those around me so negatively like she has.
And yes, I used to occasionally beat my head against a bed post or punch my arms until they were covered in bruises as a child when my parents were fighting a lot or being particularly verbally abusive, but I was just a kid, and kids don’t know how to handle their emotions.
It’s true, when my mom told me I couldn’t “see” my boyfriend anymore as a 14 year old I did down every pill in my parents medicine cabinet and spend the night in the hospital drinking charcoal, but all teenagers are hormonal and imbalanced, right?
And yeah, the next year when a different boyfriend broke up with me I stopped eating and lost 25 lbs within a span of a few short weeks, but again, every teenage girl thinks it’s the end of the world after a bad break up. That’s totally normal.
Sure, as an adult there have been seasons in my life when I’ve been down and was sad and tired a great deal, but I’ve never had to seek therapy or medications or hospitalization like friends and family of mine who really suffer from depression.
And yes, there may have been times when I’ve even considered harming or cutting myself, but I’ve never actually done any of those things like people who have a real problem.
And yeah, I did find myself so consistently down that I was completely robbed of my faith last winter, but I found different, more mundane, stuff to talk about on my blog and I still went to church even though I would cry before hand and feel like I was going to crawl out of my skin, during. But when spring, and a move to a new church, came this year I found my way back to God with a stronger spiritual life than ever.
And sure, I hide all of this stuff from people, but just because I don’t want to be labeled whiny or melodramatic, not because it’s a real problem.
So you see, I’m not one of those people who really, truly suffers from depression.
However, if you are interested in reading stories of people who are accepting, coping, and living with depression, I highly recommend that you check out the book Not Alone that was edited by my friend Alise. It’s a real lifeline to community for those people that really need it. You know, those people with real depression.