I happened upon Nicole’s last and final post this morning and I so totally got it. I’m not about to hang up my blogging apron all together, but I feel everything she said in that post.
The reasons why I don’t blog anymore are somewhere between two and three fold.
1. I’m busy
Busier than I’ve ever been. Which may be a light load for others but it’s all consuming for me. I’m working a part time job out of the house, doing part-time work from home, and expected to devote at least 6 hours a week to developing the team of financial partners for our assignment in South Asia. Plus, ya know, parent and cook and clean and stuff.
2. I’m Not All Hot And Bothered
Here’s where I give Nicole an air-five for SO GETTING IT. I just don’t have it in me to be a regular opinion/faith blogger anymore. I’m over it. That season of life has waned and I no longer feel the need to set the record straight or save Christianity. Whatevs. I just want to hang out and do my thing and grow in my walk. Without broadcasting it.
3. I’m tongue-tied
If I’m not going to be an opinion blogger anymore, I DON’T KNOW HOW TO BE. I’m kind of all broken as a blogger. I started out, like most people, just sharing daily life. Then I had seasons where I was all HERE ARE MY OPINIONS, intertwined with flirting with blogging as a business (which is exhausting).
Now, frankly, I don’t know how to put words on screen anymore. It doesn’t feel “good enough” or professional enough to just do a post about how I’ve started jogging lately. Or how Five Year Old lost both top/center teeth last week and is the most adorable person ever. Or about how I’m drinking green smoothies. Or about how my oldest turned 13 and is crazy smart and beautiful.
Basically, I don’t know how to go back to just blogging for fun, blogging as a record of our family. I know this is my space but when you share your writing with the world, you set a standard and it feels terrifying to suddenly change the rules. “Oh, I know you come here for deep thoughts on faith, but LOOK HOW CUTE MY KINDERGARTNER IS.”
So, that’s the long and short of it.
Feel free to console me now and tell me that you really want to see and hear about our mundane, currently southern life. Maybe I’ll get over this blogging complex.